I’m trying. I’m really trying to get a post up this week, but there’s just no time. It’s been so swamped that I have to prioritize and cleaning cat boxes has to come before a standard blog post with pictures & all the goods (though I’d rather do the latter 😂). I haven’t had the time or energy to even think about a topic, let alone write a post. So here we are. I thought I would just update you on life in my little insignificant world. I may need to be a bit vague in spots, but here we go…!!!
I have been running so many errands the past few weeks that it has become ridiculous. I feel like I’m starting to get a sense of what it’s like to have children. I knew I never wanted them, but this is really convincing if I ever forget! 😂 I’ve been to grocery stores, pharmacies, Targets (yes, plural), and back around again…and again…and again. If only that were all! 😄
I have always had more doctor’s appointments than most thanks to semi-poor health, but lately it’s been absurd! And they aren’t just my appointments! Grrr! So many doctors! Nothing is actually wrong, I’ve just had a lot of them bunched together and then added the complication of deciding to go on Accutane, which has required more unanticipated visits. More on the Accutane in a minute….
I’ve been trying my best to get back on the regular exercise bandwagon too, which is something I need to do for my own sanity at this point! 😉 I’ve been following the Tone It Up Bikini Series and am actually doing really well at keeping up with the schedule! Feeling so good about that. I can already feel my muscle tone improving again, I’m sleeping better, I’m eating healthier foods and just all around surviving. 😋 That’s a definite bright spot right now! Don’t get me wrong, I don’t really enjoy exercising much, but it does make me feel like I’ve accomplished something each day. And I love feeling stronger…and healthier, so yea!!!
Yesterday (May 11th) was my Dad’s Birthday and it’s been so hard to try and get anything together for it. And as those in the States know, Sunday is Mother’s Day, so even more to do! Bad timing, but such worth-while events. 😃 I’m afraid my Dad’s cake didn’t look as impressive as I would have liked, but when it still tastes good, nothing else matters. 😉 Plus it was a lovely day and I think he really enjoyed it!!! 🎉🎉🎉
Ok. So, Accutane. This probably deserves an entire post unto itself, but for now I’m just gonna give you the basics of my decision. I know that it is a highly controversial drug – at least in the US – and I have thought long and hard about whether it’s really something I want to do. The side effects can be horrendous and as someone with an already established mood disorder (currently controlled by medication for quite some time), it can be even scarier. At this point, my dermatologist and I have both agreed that I have tried everything to treat my acne and literally nothing makes more than a tiny dent in the problem. It does come and go in terms of severity, but there’s no rhyme or reason to it. I’m going on 5 years of struggling with this mess of bumps and angry, painful pimples all over my face. I already have some scarring, I believe in part due to an esthetician’s wonderful extracting work that I put up with for a few years. It’s just at a point that I feel self-conscious about it and I don’t want to deal with it any longer. So Accutane is my last resort. I have talked to my psychiatrist about it and he wants to keep a closer eye on me, but is willing to let me try it. He was actually wonderfully understanding about it. Obviously it’s not his ideal solution, but he feels it’s ok to try. So I will have a lot of people looking out for me and a lot of support.
I’ve been researching ways to combat the dryness that will certainly come my way and that’s actually kept me going at times. In case you hadn’t guessed, I enjoy learning about all things beauty. 😜 Aside from after completing chemotherapy and the occasional bout of severe winter-related dry hands, I’ve never dealt with much dry skin. It’s oddly an interesting “challenge.” I know, that’s putting it too lightly, but I have to try and keep some perspective because if that’s the extent of my problems, I will be doing fantastic. Plus it’s one of the few side effects I can at least make an effort to “manage,” though it will still be in vein. I’m hoping for the best, but am aware of the bad too.
Anyway, that’s about it. It’s just been a lot of running around with little time to myself lately. Apologies for fewer posts, but I have been posting some InstaStories…usually while waiting in the car. 😄 Thank you to any and all that have been watching my little vignettes. 😜 I’m hoping to get back to posting more regularly soon, but I can’t promise anything. If I seem to be MIA, you now have some idea why. Thank you for being understanding and I’m hoping to get back on track soon!!! 😘